A few days ago I went to my favourite pianist Ludovico Einaudi’s concert whose music has been just so close to my heart, and afterward, I wanted to share my experience, but I was utterly speechless. The experience was so profound that I felt I didn’t want to say a word yet. The music led me so deep into my feelings, emotions, and body that it seemed any words I could say would only pull me out of that incredible depth of embodied presence I felt. The same embodied presence I feel when I do somatic processing, and my experience shifts from pain and contraction to lightness and openness, as if I am living my natural sense of self again.
This was my first live concert with him, even though I’ve been listening to his music for what feels like forever. I expected it to be a deeply moving experience, but it gave me so much more than I could have imagined.
I thought I already knew his music because it has been a constant companion in my life, helping me navigate difficult phases and allowing me to delve deeply into the felt sense of my emotions. I even use it in my somatic work to go deep into my feelings and release trauma from my body.
But hearing it live was a different and much deeper experience. Honestly, at first, it was so raw, so alive, that it touched every corner of my being. Each sound seemed to penetrate deep into my body, even into my organs and deeply repressed unconscious feelings. For a moment, I thought it might overwhelm me and that I couldn’t let it through, but after the first 10–15 minutes, it was okay, I surrendered to it and cried through most of the concert.
By the end, I felt all my emotions and sensations alive and present, fully illuminated without resistance. It was as if every feeling in my body had been awakened, enlightened, and set free. I could hear and feel what my body was saying, and the music itself seemed alive—gentle, intricate, and profoundly detailed.
As I listened, it felt like each chord carried subtle messages, as if every particle of the music spoke to me. Just as I hear messages from my body and emotions through somatic inquiry, I heard messages from the music. It carried me from resistance, pain, and anger into deeper joy, freedom, and serenity.
When the music carried kindness and gentleness, my body tensed up at first. Then it felt as if the music said, ‘It’s okay to allow the pain,’ and my body relaxed. When the music carried intensity and empowerment, I felt scared and noticed fear in my stomach. But again, it was as if the music reassured me, saying, ‘The power isn’t outside of you; it’s not dangerous,’ and I relaxed with the fear. It was as though each note carried subtle messages, bringing forth the unconscious resistant voice behind my emotions and offering exactly what I needed to connect with it, release and relax it.
Do you also support your somatic work and inner processes with music or other practices? I’ve noticed that discovering our needs is incredibly important—it becomes so much easier to stay engaged in the process when we understand what we truly NEED to connect with our body, feelings, mind, thoughts, and, importantly, the unconscious resistance to inner work itself.
Commitment, self-discipline, and regular practice are essential when starting this journey to learn the somatic tools. However, we often overlook the unconscious resistance that can cause us to avoid the process or feel stuck.
Warmly,
Serena
What you find inside transforms everything outside! 🌀
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